DISCLOSURE

So, no poem today lol Exam's have been all up in my ass I've not had a chance to be inspirational. Also, I did not have something worth writing about. But today. I do. As usual, I'm complaining about something coz I'm just that kind of person (no apologies hihi)   My mother, who happens to be a psychologist and LOOOVES analyzing me, once gave me some piece of advice I would like to share. I remember I was busy complaining about something that happened in my high school and as usual, she listened to everything, nodded but instead of sharing in my pain or helping me to bad mouth the school director (who I still dislike up to today) like what my small mind expected, she turned off the TV and started the most heartfelt lecture I ever had in my life. Which has surprisingly been something I follow through with to this day. She told me "Mwende, there are three kinds of problems in life. There are problems that YOU have to deal with yourself and shouldn't let anybody...

And then I smiled. Because he’d cracked a joke Or maybe because he was around me And I knew I’d give almost anything To keep him there. Maybe I smiled Because I didn’t have to. And he enjoyed my company too He said it every time we were together. He said I was interesting. I believed him; because it’s true. And I smiled too because I knew he meant it from his heart. “I got you”. He whispered. I looked up and our eyes met. I felt safe because he was strong enough And I smiled again because He knew I was falling. It was prohibited. He was taken. And I wasn’t spoken for. But forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest. And although curiosity killed the cat The cat had nine lives. I am not afraid to cry in his arms Because he’ll kiss away the tears And his tenderness will make them dry. He said “forever”. I smiled. Because forever doesn...

It's the way his voice sounded and how words rolled off his lips. It's the way he mentioned my name when he was trying to make a point. It's the way that he smiled and how soft the curve was shaped. It's the way his mouth looked when he was about to laugh. It's the way he gazed at me and how his eyes pierced into mine. It's the way he stops mid-sentence and stares that makes me want to pee myself. It's the way his breath felt when he whispered in my ear. It's the way his body heat turned me on and that was not even meant to be a pun. It's the way his hands clasped around mine and made me feel warm. It's the way his arms engulfed me and I got lost in his world. It's the way he would hold me and own me like a trophy. It's the way he'd carry me around like I was his favorite prize. It's the way his lips would suck mine and make me lose all sense of control. It's the way he w...

Just like the date on the milk carton I don't even drink I think I can see the expiry date on this friendship. And it's even passed. Don't see eye to eye no more Don't even see you at all and  I ain't even complaining. I used to cry when you left text you something sweet and encouraging whenever you'd cross my mind. Now you're like at the bottom of my whatsapp messages. And I only noticed that coz I was sending you an invite to a party I was attending coz a part of me still cares still remembers still struggles to keep us together. I been stretching out the second chances or should I say infinite chances coz I can't even count the number of times we've collided. And we keep coming back  to this toxicity and foolishness just to get close enough to break and crush each other again. Once bitten twice shy. It's been too many times my heart and body is exhausted. We was fresh for a long whil...

Millebaci lipgloss Raybans stunners Gold chain, gold watch My fresh belly ring New Victoria secret underneath And that Fantasy perfume Everything, check. Ready to show up in style Rock his world How I always do, y'know? No? Maybe that's coz he didn't show. And my skin got tanned waiting for him in the sun. I think I even lost weight walking around tryna give him time Time he wasn't worthy of coz clearly, it's been four hours now. Why though? I mean, he could just cancel. It's just a phone call or even worse, a text. But silence, damn that's him making damn sure he's never seing me again. So I head back to where I'm from. Still rocking. still stunning. And the oglers around stare and think "Boy I'd love to be with her. The man in her life must be so lucky" Hmmm Funny how the man in my life don't seem to know that yet. This, was a poem written by a very angry Kenya...

So, it's been a while. I truthfully did forget I had a blog and all and mostly coz it's just hard coming up with something people are supposed to read. Something that makes sense, or tries to. But today, I kinda do. It's a new year. 2015 (yeeiiyy) We all jumped around in ecstasy on 1st Jan drinking screaming laughing..... some of us were in bed thanking God 2014 was finally over. As much as most people like to pretend we don't make resolutions and stuff, you know you deep down you made a few plans, you thought about what you'd like to change about yourself, your thinking, your habits, basically anything that you are in control of. And we don't have to keep up and be perfect, the first step is being aware that you actually need to change something. For the better, for worse, change is personal. But positivity is key, we need a better world to live in. So, I personally made a few plans and had only one key resolution. That I already broke haha I'm not surp...