It's a new year. 2015 (yeeiiyy) We all jumped around in ecstasy on 1st Jan drinking screaming laughing..... some of us were in bed thanking God 2014 was finally over. As much as most people like to pretend we don't make resolutions and stuff, you know you deep down you made a few plans, you thought about what you'd like to change about yourself, your thinking, your habits, basically anything that you are in control of. And we don't have to keep up and be perfect, the first step is being aware that you actually need to change something. For the better, for worse, change is personal. But positivity is key, we need a better world to live in.
So, I personally made a few plans and had only one key resolution. That I already broke haha I'm not surprised though. Humans, we have a bad tendency to make excuses and to compromise a lot on things we shouldn't and pull the whole "It's my life anyway I make my own rules". We forget that today is not gonna be the same tomorrow, next week, next month, next year.... in the long run that rule you made may affect your children... or lack thereof.. scary right? Life is scary. Sometimes I feel like we have too many decisions to make, decisions that determine so much in our lives. It's all part of growing up and taking charge and being responsible and shit but being responsible SUCKS. Funny how we used to want to be grownups when we were kids to "do what I want without anybody telling me what to do" then we get here and we kinda wish someone divine with all knowledge would just make all the decisions that will make your life better. Knowing you're in charge of your future, not entirely of course but you're the driver and you control your car your speed the direction *sighs* it's too much.
Point of writing this today, was to say that its now February. The year is still young it's like 8 on a Friday night when you're going out. There's so much to do, eat, dress up, gather people meet up then go... And we've got a long night ahead. We still have time to make "resolutions" because honestly, not having plans for your life because it's too " mainstream" is immature and stupid. Life is yours not your peers and friends and people you're tryna impress. God knows they have their secret plans too coz people are insincere like that. My mum likes to tell me, people are too concerned with their own lives to bother looking at yours. It seems unlikely considering the kinda people we've become today that needs a class on minding their own business. But, those are the idlers. When you're busy being your own person and making your life better each day you have NO time to pause and look at what others are doing with theirs. Unless of course, that's the life you choose for yourself. At the end of the day. when you're lying in your bed, I like to say. You're alone in your thoughts. You're alone with your fears, your dreams, your vision, your demons... don't sleep in regret.
And also,, I'm too young to be sounding like this hell I haven't even figured out half the shit happening in my life but when I go to sleep each day I've made progress, progress I'm proud of. Are you making progress???
